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The Saturn Return Of The Soldier And P: Circumstances Recreate Themselves
Astrology in real life
The soldier and I continue to exist in a time warp. Living together now feels identical to how we lived together 30 years ago and I noticed today that our schedules are very similar now to what they were then.
The soldier has told me many times the best job he ever had in his life was the one he had when he was with me back in the day. He went to work for 2 days (overnight, a 48 hour shift) and then had 3 days off. This gave us a lot of time together. We spent every minute we had off the job together and it was significant.
Last week the soldier wrote his son to say the job he has now is the best civilian job he’s ever had. He works four 10-hour shifts and has a 3 day weekend unless he has to work overtime which again gives us a lot of time together. My son goes to his father’s house on the weekends so it actually is time we have alone and I just sort of marvel at this. Because the soldier is used to working… um, at least 16-18 hours a day if not more. He has worked like crazy all his life and now back with me… it’s very little work in comparison.
I am not sure what all this means but he says all the time that we didn’t know how good we had back then which is true. And I am just sort of fascinated with the prospect of what may lie ahead because we have astrology. And the astrology is clear, this is a Saturn cycle. Saturn begs for commitment and we skipped out on this last chance we had. We just didn’t have the chops obviously but for some reason these days I feel there has been no loss. I am so happy and he is so familiar it is almost hard to believe all those years passed. And this is what was so great about seeing that old friend of the soldier’s last weekend.
We met that first day and he looked at us… he kept doing a double take. Later he would tell me he is prone to having déjà vu but had experienced the longest most prominent episode of his life sitting there with us. I had a similar experience though I would not characterize it déjà vu. I just thought it was normal. Normal as in nothing has been normal for the last 30 years but it is now. Whew!
And I’ll tell you the flip side of this. When we see or meet people who do not associate us together (like Leon, various other people) - Well they just don’t get it at all. He’s not my new boyfriend, see. But how can people know this or understand this? I don’t think they can. We can’t even understand it without applying metaphysics.
Because aren’t you supposed to meet someone after 30 years and note the changes? This seems right to me but today we went bike riding, stopping halfway to eat the picnic lunch in the cooler I had slung over my shoulder. We’d have been on a motorcycle if we had one and this is exactly the kind of thing we’d do when we were kids. And it seems strange to me.
Strange because we do not have to recreate this stuff, it recreates itself (as do the fights we have). In whatever case I am anxious to see Saturn move beyond the point it was at when we met. We are trying to narrow that down now… it was after the Jim Jones thing, see. He has already picked up all those bodies when I met him but I think we are pretty close to the exact Saturn return.
I am excited about this because right now we are just setting up same as we did when we were kids but we never got to see the next scene did we? What would have happened had we committed, hmm? Now we get to find out and who do I thank for this, that’s what I would like to know.
That and why do we get this opportunity? This question burns in me. Freakin’ Jupitarian -What does it meeeeean?
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What a picture, E! I was born a few months before Jonestown and I can’t ever remember seeing a picture of the victims. It makes my heart hurt. *shakes head*
I don’t know why this happened for you two, but I’m happy it did. When you talk about him here, the energy from it is almost incandescent; it’s wonderful to witness.
Maybe everyone gets a second chance at something and you two just happened to take the ball and run?
My comment went boom.
Yeah, what does this all mean. . .this is good stuff. I like the descriptions of these subtleties in this story that combine to recreate the scenario.
I really don’t understand Time.
The days are slow and the years are fast.
Some people you ALWAYS have the time warp with.
In fact, I kinda have to associate with such people, because I’m the world’s worst person at keeping in touch. You’ll hear from me every few months or years… if we can’t reconnect the same way each time, the relationship’ll go kaput, and while I know it’s my fault, that doesn’t change much.
But joyful time warps that take you back to good times are so much awesome.
“Maybe everyone gets a second chance at something and you two just happened to take the ball and run?”
Yeah, that could be it. Took us 5 years to get back together once we were in contact and the last 2? Well they were something else. Only 10% of this story has been told.
I have to wonder who/what all the bodies he picks up this time will be?
My hubby & I have a similar story.. were best friends in highschool but I liked him & he me.. didnt work out that way for various reasons (none of which ended up being very important) fast forwarded 6 years & got a second chance & took it. We’ve been together ever since. The two of us together wasnt ever akward like it should have been after so long apart.. we just kind of fell back into our old rhythm.
Whoa, Heather, excellent comment about time!
Ewinbee, I can really relate to what you just said…
But! Rox, don’t say THAT! Ewwww…
Elsa before I actually looked at that picture, I thought it was a beach with people all over it. How utterly horrible (for them, for the soldiers that had to deal with it, for the world) Is that a picture that the soldier took? My heart goes out to him, especially since I know that guys can be so sensitive.
Second chances are good, perhaps your both are deserved of that according to the cosmos. I hear you thinking and analyzing what seems to be going ok for you and the Soldier Elsa.
kingsley
Kingsley - you mentions frames awhile back and this is an interesting one. I have a blog coming up re: something the soldier likes to think about… incessantly one could say but really it is just what he is interested in and this is something I am interested in. I love astrology and the interaction between people so rather than trying to fix something that is going wrong or looking for problems we aren’t having, I am looking for insights and/or pieces large or small that might let me understand things better.
Some would say I should just live, but this is exactly what I am doing. I am living as Elsa P was meant to… spending my time and energy as I was designed to, I’m pretty sure.
I think we meet people when both of us have an experience to make together that we cannot make alone nor with someone else. If we refuse it the first time (for whatever reason) and the experience is still important and pending for both, we get a second chance - or we take a second chance. If there was no pending, we would not meet again. Pending and canceled are on our spiritual account. We can access it by intuition but only modify it by experience.
Conny, that is very interesting. I have never thought of it that way before.