Pluto Transit To The Moon - Mine: Opting Out Of Suffering And Flashback To When I Was A Wreck
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Remember this: Nothing Disturbs Like Disturbing A Stellium In Scorpio?
I had called my lifelong friend, Leon and filled him in on the situation with my daughter etc. I was only on the phone a few minutes but disturbed him greatly and have not talked to him since… until today. Today I called and left him a message to let him know that things had improved and I was doing really well. It was a relief for me to make that call and I am sure it will be a relief for him to hear my voice. I also updated the hair salon - Everyone in there has been tracking my daughter’s illness for more than 5 years.
They know what an extraordinary hardship this has been, they have seen it firsthand and I told them today that I think I made a mistake. Well… mistake is the wrong word but I was trying to explain that I had come to the conclusion I tried too hard for too long to make something happen that was just against God, I guess. That is, I was trying to keep my daughter in school and it seemed a good idea at the time. My daughter has tested in the 99th percentile, this seemed to make sense.
But anyway, I just got the mail and guess what is in there? It’s my daughter’s yearbook. They mailed it to her… she has been out of school since November. And walking into the house with the thing in my hand it occurred to me I could take a dive over this but I am not going to.
I looked through the book and she’s not in it. She was in 8th grade. Today would have been her last day of middle school and if someone would have told me this was going to happen to her… and to me and to my son? Well, I just don’t know.
I don’t understand this whole deal. I don’t understand it even remotely the way I will in 10 years but I do know I am tired of suffering and right now I am not suffering and I am just going to keep it that way.
I have taken the 12th house way out as described in this video… boy I look sad here, I think I made this is November or December so more evidence that things have improved.
To relate my appearance to the content of the video, I would say I was in the 6th house as far as process goes when I filmed this..
My attempt to answer questions about how the order of the zodiac applies to… everything.
I meant 52 years old in this… whoops!
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11 Responses to “Pluto Transit To The Moon - Mine: Opting Out Of Suffering And Flashback To When I Was A Wreck”
You do seem very sad in this video…just makes me want to reach out and give you a big hug…know that my heart goes out to you…
Well I was sad in that video, I was sort of shocked to see it. I remember how I was feeling at the time. I was committed to keeping up this blog because I was pretty sure if I let it go I would not come back. It was a high wire act for me and I knew I was very shaky but yeah.
Seeing it now is a trip because I know exactly what was going on at the time - my whole live was coming apart - It was like hitting the iceberg riding the Titanic and you are the Titanic but I was still going to come on here, by God. I am an odd mixture of defiance and humility.
Um…. so it just makes no difference? What doesn’t? Sorry, I listened like three times… Maybe I have some kind of block on this! (Though I can relate to getting it but still trying to control the outcome.)
I’m thankful you are finding some peace. I think of Mosta as I deal with some of my really GT 8th graders. So grown up and yet so young.
Nothing makes any difference.. not really. Not in the grand scheme of things. I try to impart my husband with this particular wisdom & all it does is make him feel like hes struggling for nothing! Thats not true of course because while nothing matters in the grand scheme, everything matters on the personal level. Its all in the way you view it (perspective). SO it might matter to “me” but overall? It just doesnt. Which IS freeing! Yes, I might be in pain because someone I love is being cross with me, but when I think of the overall big picture, I know it doesnt matter. Not really.
This was such a moving post Elsa. My heart breaks everytime to hear about Mosta & you when you write thses posts but its these posts that I relish the most. Why? Because the are so hellishly real but bring with it an amazing amount of wisdom and perspective and gratefulness.
Much love & hope finally reaching the 12th house transcendence will bring some peace & relief for now.
Why is it that most of the videos where you look sad, the (natural) light is dim? ((((Elsa))))
SaDiablo - I am not sure. I film the videos in natural light and do know my mood drops when it is overcast so perhaps this is the correlation. I have mild SAD, I would say.
Def feel better in the sunlight.
I had forgotten about that post! I did notice the correlation in the vids, though, so I’d have to say you’re right. As a Leo sun I feel better when it’s bright out, too.
i’ve found it can be good to have a link to the rest of reality when you’re caught in a whirlpool….
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