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Astrology And Psychology: Saturn Defeats Compulsion To Repeat Traumatic Experience
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Continuing to blather on the Church’s Fried Chicken Girl, I’ll just state this for the record: The soldier never did me dirty when we were kids and I returned the favor. Never once did we fight dirty, never once did we say, “I don’t love you” or any other nasty thing. Neither of us cheated or betrayed each other in any way… nor did either of us feel we were betrayed.
I think this is enormously meaningful (and unusual) and it’s relevant in the moment because one thing I am acutely aware since the soldier moved in (and then really moved in) is that we are utterly repeating everything.
Yep, everything is just like it was which makes me wonder if we could end up same as last time and I think we absolutely could. Because the same problems (communication) constellate as they always did and the only thing that saves us is the fact and sheer knowledge of how we fared without each other.
Not to say we both had miserable lives because we did not. But we did not get to be with the person who loves us the most, more than anyone else ever could. So this is one point. The compulsion to repeat is there and must be overridden but this is another reason why the assertion that I mistreated the soldier irks me so much.
I did not mistreat the soldier! Not for a day, an hour or even a minute (nor did he mistreat me) and this is paying us now, in spades.
Because do we worry about being betrayed? No. Do we worry about be lied to, tricked or cheated in any way? No. We only have to worry about repeating our history and I don’t think we will and the credit goes to Saturn!
Saturn, because 28 years later we have grown up. We have learned something and we are humble!
Too bad these things are underrated because it seems to me you can only go so long without them. Too bad so many of us have to be deprived to appreciate the good things we have (or had). In the immortal words of William Bell, “You don’t miss your water ’til your well runs dry.”
Have you ever experienced the well phenomena? How about repetition compulsion?
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Is it possible that for such a young age, I too have learned a valuable lesson (about three years ago), even prior to my Saturn Return? It was truly an eye-opening, humbling experience. Painful as hell, but necessary indeed. I realize I am young, but I learn lessons as soon as I am made aware of them. Besides the obvious benefits, do you think this fares well for someone so young? I guess what I’m trying to ask is, will I be cut any damn slack during my Saturn Return since I am quick at learning lessons/maturing?
“will I but cut any damn slack during my Saturn Return since I am quick at learning lessons/maturing?”
absolutely! Yes, yes, yes and yes.
Hi Elsa,
As you know, I have a similar situation as yours (first love back in my life 28 years later) and you’re absolutely right in everything you say. My guy and I split up as teenagers over family feud reasons, not because of anything we ever did to each other. We treated each other even back then very honourably and I see this continues today. I trust his motives, his character, his word and he trusts me too. And even though we had fairly good lives without each other, our life now as a couple is so wonderful, so giving, and so easy, that we don’t take anything for granted. And we don’t waste time on trivialities or having senseless arguments (something I did all the time in previous relationships!). I’m not so sure about “repeating” — it feels more like we’re picking up from where we left off so many years ago–but we are very much aware that the situation which separated us so many years ago could suddenly rear its ugly head and separate us again. Oh wait, there is something that is repeating: the emails he sends me are eerily similar to the letters he sent me as a young man, right down to his use of poetry excerpts and song lyrics. I took a few letters out the other day to show him and he was blown away. “I haven’t changed at all!” he said. “Not when it comes to me, you haven’t!” Saturn in Virgo–the stability and security of words on paper!
not with the same person so much. i had a short version of the making the same mistakes in a more grown up way last year and realizing where the mistakes ended and a basic insuitability to maintain a relationship started.
maturing, it sure has been, to watch these processes. and i have no time for something that isn’t going to work. it’s difficult enough to try to put in the effort and perspective in something that actually has potential. so i figure i’ll save my energy for those…
but i started out with a pretty dry well and it’s rarely been filled much so i’v long been acutely aware of the lack.
i guess that’s actually a perk of saturn/venus: being aware of how valuable the real thing is.
makes it easier to walk away when it’s obviously not real….