May
8

Pluto Transit To The Moon - Mine: My Daughter Is Not Dead

Astrology in real life

kidsI got a mail from someone this morning who thought my daughter had died. My daughter is not dead. My daughter is very ill and I am no longer able to care for her at home.

We cleaned out her room because she has been gone nearly six months and it is time to face the reality that the odds of her ever being able to live at home again… well it would take a bona fide miracle and no one sees one of those coming.

It is like a death, I will tell you that. She is 12, almost 13 and her room was full of things I bought for her to have a life she is not going to have. It’s just gone through my fingers and there is not a damned thing can be done.

This kind of stuff has got to happen to someone and the someone it happened to is me.

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29 Responses to “Pluto Transit To The Moon - Mine: My Daughter Is Not Dead”

  1. joana says on 5/8/08 at 6:30 am:

    I’m so sorry Elsa.
    All that I can say is that I hope things get better really soon. And that you’re amazing to still be doing your job like this.

  2. skye says on 5/8/08 at 6:34 am:

    Death has many shapes and forms. You’re always in my thoughts Elsa, as is your family.

  3. Amber says on 5/8/08 at 7:21 am:

    My heart truly goes out to you and with this message I send loving thoughts and energy.

  4. Little Miss Hermit says on 5/8/08 at 7:34 am:

    I don’t know what to say, but I feel compelled to say something - so I’ll just say that I’m so very sorry for your situation, Elsa, and my thoughts are with you. You’ll emerge stronger than ever.
    And, along the same lines as joana’s comment above; I’m so impressed with your determination to keep this blog going (the most important astrology blog out there, says this fellow Virgo:) in the middle of all this. I’m sure it’s good to have some aspect of your life where it’s “business as usual” (but still not really usual, by any means - please don’t get me wrong) in the middle of all this. Some sense of normalcy is a great platform.
    Plus, you have both your Taureans around for this one:)
    Big hug:o)

  5. Lori says on 5/8/08 at 7:51 am:

    My heart goes out to you and your family.

  6. Jilly says on 5/8/08 at 8:10 am:

    I’m sorry you all are going through that.

  7. Lilly says on 5/8/08 at 8:18 am:

    Elsa, your strength in the face of all this is inspiring. I’m so sorry that this is happening to you and your family. Every time I pray, I have always included you and Mosta. Sending lots of love & light your way…<3

  8. Jennifer says on 5/8/08 at 8:20 am:

    What Lori said. It’s hard once you realize they are never coming home again.

    I am a wee bit impressed that you are cleaning stuff out, though. My mom still keeps Dad’s wheelchairs and won’t get rid of them (though she occasionally *loans* out some disability aid or other). I guess it’s “just in case he comes back from the dead” logic at this point…or um, she’s a Taurus.

  9. seekingzen says on 5/8/08 at 8:22 am:

    I really hope you all get the surprise of your lives with one of those miracles.

  10. Marc says on 5/8/08 at 8:25 am:

    Elsa,

    So sorry to hear that things have reached this point. One way or another, things will get better. It may not go the way you had planned, but don’t give up hope.

    Marc

  11. Amber says on 5/8/08 at 8:36 am:

    I agree with seekingzen

  12. Amethyst says on 5/8/08 at 9:45 am:

    I’m sorry, Elsa.

  13. wyrdling says on 5/8/08 at 9:55 am:

    that’s an amazing picture.

    sometimes i wonder if our world is so messed up it’s made it incapable of nurturing the most beautiful of spirits here for too long. that the sustenance for the soul is starved. i just don’t know. i try not to be so cynical most days.

    i think it’s dangerous to hope for miracles. but they do happen.

  14. Madeleine says on 5/8/08 at 10:06 am:

    Elsa, my heart and spirit send you the HUGEST blessings I can muster. I hope that in this wild and crazy world where children get sick and have to leave their homes,and their moms, that you find a smidgen of Grace.

    Madeline

  15. Shaina says on 5/8/08 at 10:36 am:

    God. I wish there was anything at all I could say which would help.

    Just thinking of you and yours, Elsa.

  16. Cassi says on 5/8/08 at 10:54 am:

    I am glad that she is alive and my thoughts are with you. No matter how lame this comes out, my heart is filled with love for you, your family and my prayers of her returning health. Our kids are our precious reason to be here. The idea of what you are going through is so hard and you are as strong a you need to be. I could not be as strong as you. Much love and hugs- Cassi

  17. shell says on 5/8/08 at 11:12 am:

    ((LOVE)) to you all, Elsa.

  18. Sadge fella says on 5/8/08 at 12:10 pm:

    So heartbreaking.
    Your strength is a model for all of us.

  19. maheggo says on 5/8/08 at 2:34 pm:

    I send my love and prayers for strength during this time for ALL of you. {v}

  20. Doreen Gordon says on 5/8/08 at 5:24 pm:

    That’s hard Elsa, very hard. Peace, love, hugs, and blessings to you.

  21. PixieDust says on 5/8/08 at 5:32 pm:

    It must be a very hard thing to fathom. It so goes against what we feel is the natural order of things. I can find a reason for anything, but I think if anything happened to my kid– it would take a long time before I’d want to. Instead of finding comfort in a “reason”, I’d almost want to say it it was just bad, and that bad things happen. I really don’t know, but this is sad and I send you lots of love, Elsa.

  22. crazy-moon says on 5/8/08 at 5:32 pm:

    Dear Elsa, in moments like this is hard to say anything that should be comforting for the other person and not a mitigation for oneself. But I have lived a little to suffer something and I know that in dark moments the only thing I could to do facing an immeasurable suffering is to embrace it. I am not religious , in fact I believe in very few facts, but sometimes I know that that if I have to go and to find some sense to this suffering I have to embrace it. My best wishes for your daugther

  23. Lis says on 5/8/08 at 5:44 pm:

    So sorry.

    Sending out much love and prayers.

  24. spinner says on 5/8/08 at 7:19 pm:

    Love and Light to you and your family
    Sincerely from,
    Spinner

  25. ewinbee says on 5/8/08 at 8:21 pm:

    She’s so beautiful.

    The rest… I don’t know how to say.

  26. Rose says on 5/8/08 at 9:33 pm:

    Dear Elsa,
    I have never written in a blog before. I just feel the need to tell you not to give up EVER. Ask Padre Pio for a miracle, i will white light you and your daughter from Australia. Much Love

  27. Kris says on 5/9/08 at 5:49 am:

    Elsa. There are no words for what my heart feels. Sending you and your family (including the soldier) the emotion I have no words for.

  28. Loonsounds says on 5/9/08 at 2:24 pm:

    Sometimes you leave me speechless Elsa, that is so rare. I appreciate it, because it reminds me, and I so easily forget. I have known the profound spiritual value in Silence. You also teach me that it is not always necessary to tell every detail and every facet of a situation. Less said can be so much more. I am very slow at that particular lesson in this lifetime.

  29. Piya says on 5/10/08 at 2:32 pm:

    My heart hurts for you.

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