Neptune On The Midheaven - I’m A Decoy Catholic
Astrology in real life
Now the soldier would tell you that I am a Catholic on account of I was baptized and while he is technically correct, I have not 1 minute of Catholic training so it leaves me at a loss when I attend Mass with him as I did today for the second time.
I am inordinately disoriented from the moment I walk in the door for an endless list of (Pluto Moon) reasons, something the soldier cannot understand for the same reasons he does not understand other things - That is that I am not him. In whatever case he asked me what I thought as we were leaving the church today and I told him that I had about a million impressions.
“For example, they start singing and I start crying,” I said. (Venus Neptune is famous for sensitivity to music) “And then I look over and see the real Catholic and she is putting on lipstick. To me that is surreal and I have no way of knowing what to make of it.”
::stare::
“And it is light in there. It is too light for my tastes; I think it should be darker somehow.”
Of course he didn’t know what I am talking about.
“Well, besides weddings I have only been in two Catholic churches in my life,” I said, naming them. One is a famous church in the middle of the desert that my mother used to paint and the other a huge church my mother used to hang out in.
“That’s a cathedral,” he said.
“Yeah? What’s that mean?”
He stares.
It is a big puzzle as to how my mother could hang out in a cathedral all day, 7 days a week and yet I have no Catholic training, you know? However this is the case.
I have also made many hundreds of rosaries in my time. I mean, I have made HUNDREDS but I have no idea what people do with them other than “pray them”.
“Anyway, seeing as these are the two Catholic churches I am familiar with… well they are both quite a bit darker and I think I prefer it,” I said. “It very airy in there, I don’t know what to make of it. I think I like the darker wood…”
He stared.
I assumed it was because this stuff is not supposed to matter but who knows. I have got to be the most confused Catholic on the planet and here I am stuck with a theologian or some such thing.
The soldier teaches this stuff you know. But I just don’t think I have a handle you can grab so I don’t know what we’re going to do.
13 Responses to “Neptune On The Midheaven - I’m A Decoy Catholic”
sorry, maybe that wasn’t exactly clear - I seem to have Venus and Neptune in the same house (8th)
Now the soldier would tell you that I am a Catholic on account of I was baptized
I usually hear it referred to by Catholics, Angelicans and Episcopalians (all Catholics of some sort for our purposes) as christening. Actual Baptists (and other Prostestants) tend to refer to it as baptism.
I have not 1 minute of Catholic training
So you haven’t been confirmed. Ok.
I assumed it was because this stuff is not supposed to matter but who knows.
If you aren’t happy or comfortable in a church or a parish, you can go to another one, no biggie.
But I just don’t think I have a handle you can grab so I don’t know what we’re going to do.
You’ll pick it up, no problem. You may not however, be happy to be in the Catholic church, as opposed to some other church.
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['Not Catholic.']
Ha ha..! Man, I’m laughing my ass off at the image of the lady putting on her lipstick! I was raised by devout Christians and while my parents left the church under duress when I was 11 or 12, my Mum still complains about how my Dad fell asleep. Every. Service.
We were back pew kind of folk…good thing too because he snores, even when he naps! I met an old woman who I knew when I was a child, and she complained (loudly) how I used to knit during service. Never mind I was 6 years old and haven’t picked up a knitting needle since!
A six year old knitter, wow! I used to draw pictures on all the offering envelopes.
LOL…I know! I didn’t even remember I once knitted until I was reprimanded! And apparently I knew how to play chess, once.
Elsa, wow, attending mass.
My mother is Episcopalian and that is what we were trained for. My father’s family was Pentacostal. Serious autobiographical family material. I did write (most of) the book (similar to Liar’s Club by Karr), but now it has been banned by my family.
If I outlive the people who have begged me to keep it away from being published, one of the chapters is called “the priest and the egg” (hilarious chapter about my experience of getting confirmed in the Episcopal church with my drunk alcoholic father playing a featured role in the chapter [and all the chapters]) and another called “the preacher in the kitchen.”
Nowadays, I prefer to remember how it feels to walk into a temple in India. To me, now that is spiritual~!
It’s Neptune. In church people are operating their Neptunes all over the place, and you are sensitive to Neptune energy, so it makes you express a huge whirlpool of projection, passion, longing. You feel dizzy because it’s a vortex of psychic energy in there. It jams your antenna.
I can’t go to church, personally, it makes me act like a crazy person.
I have no catholic background, but have always gone to catholic schools, and somehow like the atmosphere in (dark) churches. I will keep that soft spot, but since I’ve lived in Italy for three years the catholic church is out of favour. The Vatican gave me the creeps to such a degree my stomach turned - it’s all about power and riches, not so much about love. The christ figures have always given me the creeps - I prefer Maria (that was good in Italy, very baroque beautiful Marias).
They don’t like astrologers either.at least over here. Supposed to be the work of Satan. Stupid people…
Raised a Catholic, indoctrinated as a Catholic, raised in Catholic schools, (through high school!) ran screaming from the Church when I became an adult. Being an Aquarian, I couldn’t fathom how one gender was suppose to “submit” to another or how women were less worthy than men.
To illustrate: in the seventh grade, a call went around for someone to read the gospels in an upcoming Mass and the none of the boys were interested. They had all done it and just didn’t want to. I offered. The nun said, great and passed my name along to the priest. Well you would have thought that I suggested that I bring the devil into the church itself. The priest came to the classroom himself to say that no, it wasn’t appropriate for a girl to be in the altar area of the church to give the reading.
Years later,(after Catholic strictures had lessened) I had the satisfaction of standing in that area of the very same church giving a reading for my sister’s blessing of her wedding. But it wasn’t the same and by that time I no longer practiced as a Catholic.
You are not missing anything Elsa.
The weekend before last my husband and I were in a wedding. Our friend couple was married by the catholic church by an “independent” priest. During the rehersal, he immediately made it known that he was an “independent” preist because “they wanted me to learn spanish to help the Mexicans, but I didn’t want to help the Mexicans; I wanted to only help my own people (Guamanian)!” Okay.
Then, during the actual wedding, during the mass part, he starts off talking about marriage…THEN (at a wedding, mind you, a time for celebration) he begins a rant about abortion, of all things. “PREMEDITATED MURDER!” he says…”BURNING IN HELL!” he says. Everyone in the church is looking around like what the hell??
I’ve always been torn about leaving the Catholic church (after having been baptized, receiving my first holy communion, and my confirmation). I try to find reasons to go back, just to please my mother. But that priest only reminded me of why I left, and why I have a distaste for religion all together. I consider myself a “spiritual” person. And I’ve never felt coser to God 
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