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Astrology Today - Reality … But Not Too Much
My eye on the sky
There are plenty of things talk about but what interests me most at the moment is the current (and coming) oppositions between Saturn in Virgo and planets in Pisces. I am going to try to make a video later today on this topic but for now I have this story.
The other day HQ and I found out the emails (Virgo) between us have been disappearing (Pisces) for weeks. We found a workaround and yesterday he mailed me to ask how I have been faring in my crisis. I have been telling him all along but the mails have been lost so he was catching up, I guess.
“Is it excruciatingly painful or are you (relatively) detached now?” he asked.
See he knows me. The mails have gone south but he’s been reading my blog all along. And I imagine that reading my blog it does not seem I am in “excruciating pain” but he knows I am routinely in some sort of situation incongruent with reality as it appears here. I just can’t seem to make it be otherwise but anyway, I gave him a perfect (Virgo) non-answer (Pisces). I gave him solid (Saturn in Virgo) vapor (Pisces) and it sounded like this:
“Sometimes I feel really bad, sometimes I feel not so bad.” (Pisces - two fish different directions…. but always a little bit sad.
Then I thought a little bit and added…
“It is excruciating when I think about x,y, and z… but I am pretty good at not thinking about it. (Saturn in Virgo, control your thinking… Pisces avoidance.
Then I thought some more because I was trying to answer the damned question! I was working at it!! (Saturn in Virgo) And I came up with the thing I was trying to say and it sounded like this in my Elsa P code to HQ (this quote is exact)
“try very hard to avoid /mixed with wanting to stay aware so I am not blindsided.”
::sigh::
Can you see how this opposition is playing in your life?
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On the truth / illusion axis yesterday, I got six emails from Ebay telling me I am selling microphones. The truth is, I am not selling anything, but I do have an Ebay account. I was wavering, is this spam I can avoid (Pisces) or is this a project to work on (Virgo). Then I got a 7th email from Ebay telling me someone broke into my account. Hm, that was the sign I could not ignore the project any longer. I had been invaded.
I read the mails and clicked away, taking the Account Protection Tutorial, a requirement for logging on to a live chat. I got words typed at me, but I was never sure it was really a person on the other side. The only thing I knew was there was an illusion of a person on the other side. I asked dramatic questions like “Is the thief in Jail?” but with his deflective and formulaic answers, I felt like I had slipped behind the iron curtain or the Pentagon and we had to speak in code. Thieves were lurking, but good work could free us.
I needed to prove I was me because it had neutrally assured me I was not me. Funnily enough, it asked me about a specific purchase I had made on a specific day. Uh-oh, it was an astrology book.
I had to provide details about the book and some of the words I had to type were “cosmic” and “esoteric”. I felt very embarrassed to “out” myself to Ebay, but I had to, to prove I was me. After a long pause, about the length of time it takes the cop to radio in a drivers license, it finally typed to me, Congratulations, you are the authorized user of your account. I felt damn proud to be cosmic and esoteric, but still all day long today I still wonder if the thief had to go to jail.
I know I’m not the only Piscean who feels this way, but I am always waiting for the other shoe to drop, good or bad, because I have never been able to race the spectrum without coming full circle, if that makes any sense.
Like now, I’m ridiculously happy to be involved with the man I’m with, to marry him no less, but my happiness is tempered by the fact that he is in Germany (at my urging, no less) for the next two years.
Or I’m incredibly distraught over my daughter’s apparent anger management issue, only to run into someone who tells me what a sweet, big-hearted child I have, like she didn’t just take a swing at a kid yesterday.
It’s like I must have some of the other to keep my life balanced? So that one fishy isn’t just dragging the other around? Does that make sense?
This is all playing out in my 1st and 7th houses. Middle of last week, I officially gave up on ever finding love. I’m off the market (Saturn) and becoming the secular equivalent of a nun (Virgo) effective immediately. So along comes this concurrent bizarre urge to completely make myself over (Venus in the 1st) - I joined a gym, I’m buying feminine clothes, sandals, getting highlights and a pedicure, etc., and Saturn is going, “Why the hell are you even bothering? Why try to make yourself more attractive when THERE WILL BE NO MEN in your life pretty much ever? What is the point? And why spend this money on such frivolity when you could get the roof repatched??” And Venus is purring, “But I want to look nice because it makes me feel good.” Ad infinitum, ad nauseam.
At least this bundle of planets has moved out of the 12th. That was a schizy few weeks.
Avery you are far too interesting and attractive as a human to give up on finding love…ever.
As an aside, I had a self-imposed ‘no thanks’ when it came to relationships some years back and it did me a world of good. When love found me I was very open to it. Perhaps because I was more blase about it.
Perhaps your Aries/Aquarius will be content with this period of dis-engagement, and if that is the case, enjoy…and enjoy the nice things you do for yourself.
This opposition for me? Who knows…Saturn is transiting my 9th House and I am almost done my 1st year of art school. I’ve been helped by Saturn, that’s for sure. Looking forward to working this summer and not living in an overdraft.
Avery, I think I get where you’re coming from. I did this too. for me it was very necessary and very helpful.
someday you might find that though you gave up on love, love did not give up on you. <3
kind of.
what’s frustrating the heck outta’ me-
wanting to do more for someone and not feeling like our boundaries are open enough to try. compassion running into practical uncertainties.
avery- i found it very helpful to try to be beautiful for myself, and not care about whether it brought anything my way- to just try to express who i was more clearly so i could be more comfortable in my own skin. i’m just happier the more i effort i put into taking care of how i express myself, so to speak. saturn’s also about to hit my ASC, and i’m curious what that’s to bring….
(and yes, my personal odd conflict is quite engaged in messing around with my seventh house, which has been hashed to bits already by uranus. becoming more accustomed to the flux and chaotic upheavals, i guess.)