I am writing like CRAZY, but left work early because I’m still relatively flu-ish.

I shut off my cell phone because I don’t trust myself. I feel like yelling. Better for me to read a book and go to sleep early.

You’re St. Elsewhere! Glad your court date went well. I hope the soldier feels better.

For highlights, see comments on post earlier today about the eclipse. Because I don’t wanna relive it.

good news elsa!

at least you know where to draw the line- kashmiri

manic energy seemed to knock on my door early in the day and then forgot to go home.

people showed up when they were not expected and i tried to make the most of it.

people talked about things that were off topic, but oh so relevant in the moment.

some conversations around elderly relatives that had recently passed or were terminally ill. also peoples fear of dying.

i gave up trying to stay on top of my workload.

i asked some people for help and asked some if they could please reschedule.

everything seemed to work out.

after dinner my wife and i walked down to the beach and watched the eclipse. amazing!

‘it just looks kind of brown’ she said, ‘if it is supposed to be so transformational it should be rainbow coloured.’

she was definitely having some challenges today as well. similar themes. more personal. felt sad.

somehow she does not want to believe that phases of the moon and planets changing signs can affect people.

on the way back she asked me a few questions about planetary cycles, wanted more of a mathematical, physical perspective instead of a metaphysical one.

in the scheme of things it does not matter that we have different ways of viewing some things, because we have a lot in common and have been in love for so long.

and here we are. wow! what the???

(((Mari))) Ouch…but good for you to take care of your heart (is that the ‘where’ you ask of). Don’t give up hope. Anything may happen, something that surprises you.

Randamandar–thanks, that made me laugh! It was a bit cloudy over here…still very beautiful.

Thanks for that, J & K! Wow we really lucked out here with a clear night to see the eclipse, it really was awesome and felt so powerful. Now it’s typical cloudy again.
My Saturn transiting 11th house of friendships. I made 3 really good friends when I moved here 4 years ago, or so I thought, and this latest one more by default. All gone now, and not in pleasant ways. I know this was a topic discussed before. But my old time friends are still there, even if I can only see them once or twice a year.

Jamie, how very sweet. Yes! it’s true, sometimes I seem to strike up some easy and gratifying exchanges just following my interests around the net, like with you!
and Kashmiri, you have helped more than you know, your prophecy already came true today…
And thank you Randamandar. It’s funny, an old friend DID check in today and it was so sweet and validating. But mainly I had decided to affirm positive scenarios, being open to new opportunities and friends, and to focus on “infinite love and gratitude” (with the I Love You hand mudra) as a (sometimes) mindless mantra during my insommniatic periods, like over and over again in order to drown out any rising anxiety. And thinking that I was at the tail end of my confrontation with my Shadow of Unworthiness to maintain friendships.
You know that saying, be careful what you wish for? Well a few year back, I decided I wanted to manifest a solitary, monastic existence for myself, so that I could avoid all distractions, have time to meditate, study, and to use this healing techinique I was learning and get to the root and heal my “core issues” ha ha, i.e. fucked up family. So I moved to BFE, (bum fuck egypt?) and I have done a lot of really major clearing. But now, according to a well known medical intuitive who I was most fortunate enough to have a reading with, I have pretty bad arthritis because I am isolated from people (tribe, family, children, a 1st Chakra issue). I still mostly love my space and my solitude, but now I know - too much alone time, can = depression/anxiety, by default. There’s such a fine line (for me at least) between cherished solitude and having a few meaningful exchanges/week. Wouldn’t it be fun if we could all just meet sometime and sit around a table and be real and not just virtual? How about it Elsa? You in? Fun! A union…

k,thank you, can yous omehow post a link to Elsa via Paul Grilley? or vice versa?
Ya, there are many different levels to come to peace with. I am wired to uptake WAY too much of. as you say “information/energy”, or “Pshyic Free Randicals”(C Myss) internalizing them, trying to make it feel better out there, so I can feel better in here. I was very graced to have readings from two of my favorite, widely known, respected and most intuitive of astorlogers. Some of the bad news is, I don’t have any boundaries. Well, watch out, because here they come!

I think– I may be wrong– but if you find a book Elsa has linked and click the link what you buy during that session extends a gratuity to Elsa. I just checked; if you search “book” it comes up with some links.