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Open Question: How To You Represent Yourself To The World?
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Today I told the soldier I was not up to anything four or five times before he realized I was telling him I was up to something. I was up to something I could not, should not, would not be to behind his back so he had to be informed.
“I am doing this,” I said. “I am trying to show my humanity. I am trying to show that I am a person and I look like this and I think like this and I feel like this and I am not some jumble of information you get from outside sources that are silly. I mean, I have a voice. I can say who I am and how I feel and I will go on the record with exactly that. You must see this. All I have is my humanity. Do you understand? This is what I have to sell, it is my heart.”
He didn’t say anything so I assumed he did not understand.
“Look, some people point at things and that is who they are. For example one person might say I am this degree I have. Or I am this, whatever thing it is they put out there to represent themselves. Well I don’t have a thing. I am a human being and that’s all. What I have is my humanity, which is my heart and my thoughts and my feelings. These things are my stock in trade. This is what I have so this is what I will offer. (To the soldier’s son)
How do you represent yourself? What is your stock in trade? Can you see this in your chart?
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I represent myself as a compassionate person who will listen but not be walked on. I really don’t like to make enemies or have bad manners (why I felt so stupid after being busted talking badly about someone yesterday–even if I meant it–bad manners).
I’ve been told repeatedly that I am the most tolerant person around. I’ve also been told by my SO that I let myself be a doormat. I’ve been told I’m quick to anger. I’ve been told I’m patient.
Very often the case is that people’s philosophical concept of me doesn’t actually include me.
I don’t know where this falls…1st House Moon, maybe?
eh.
i try not to represent myself. i’m sure i do. but i put a lot of effort in attempting to just BE and let other people make up their own crazy arse ideas because i have only a wee bit of control over that. and actual expression is a fuzzy project (at least for me! not enough certainty and perpetual shifting) whereas masks tends to be polished.
Can’t tell how I seem!
(Venus square Neptune/Venus in the 12th/Pisces Descendent…)
Someone called me on my MO once (in a not nice way) - she said, “You work hard and you’re nice” basically saying that it was my schtick. And it is.
But it’s not the thing I really have to offer - or what I think of as “the plane I exist in”. I exist in the spiritual plane. Unfortunately, that has so little direct stock-and-trade value in the corporate work world that I spend most of my days in. So when I’m in the corporate work world, all I’ve got is “I’m nice and I work hard.” And the world with use you for that, and pay you, and then abuse you for it. And that’s what I’ve got.
But my real stock and trade is asking about and figuring out about life. And what it is and why we’re all here - all of us together - if there turns out to be any “reason” that we can understant at all. It something about the real meaning of “the human condition.” I was told by my friend and astrologer that this ties to North Node in Scoprio. Among a few other things (Pluto-Mercury conjunction in first house).
I too don’t have a thing “out there” to represent me, and I constantly get projected upon! Neptune? 12th house, 10 deg from asc…
Me and wyrdling and moonpluto, man. . .. I don’t know what people see and I really don’t care much, either. I’m just out there being me, trying to be happy, and people can think what they want.
Sun trine Neptune and Aquarius Moon, maybe?
Elsa, that was profound. This is the big secret you know, but, few people understand this.
It’s funny you say this because this is how I see myself…being human. I find all those labels weighted with indifference and most of all distance. Everyone can relate to me becuase I am just human (no labels or degrees of seperation here!) same as them. Plain and simple. That’s how I’d like to be seen.
Elsa, beautifully spoken! When I read the words the image of a flag came in to my mind, a banner rising high above the crowd, waving and sparkling in the sunlight, with people of free will and heart summoning below… This picture made my day, thank you so much!
Kundrie - how the hell are you? You’ve been missed!
I just try to look nice and be nice, down-to-earth and competent. I used to be fiercely attached to coming across as smart, but nowadays I figure my IQ will manifest itself if and when the time is right. Besides, who cares? I certainly don’t anymore. And I’m much less invested in trying to impress people. In letting go of needing approval, I find that it comes my way effortlessly. People like me better when I’m real.
But I’ll never forget what was said to me fifteen years ago. I went to a gay bar with some friends, and this drag queen with a Eurosomething accent came up to me and said, “It’s not that you are beautiful - because you are not. It is that you carry yourself as though you are. Keep doing that. It works for you.” And off he sauntered to the dance floor with his cocktail the size of a fishbowl, held delicately in his Lee Press-On nailed hand.
At first I thought, “The nerve of that bitch!” And then it hit me that this person who commits to a lifestyle of pure artifice has just walked up to a complete stranger, looked her over and NAILED IT. I’m no raving beauty - in fact, I’m quite plain but well-proportioned. But I do carry myself as though I am just as good as anyone else. Because I am.
My favorite line from “Shortbus”:
“I used to want to change the world. Now, I just want to leave the room with a little dignity.” *snap*
Yes Kundrie you have been missed! Littlemiss, I also have 12th House Neptune (11 deg. from my ASC). And I totally relate to feeling projected upon.
What I have is my humanity, which is my heart and my thoughts and my feelings. These things are my stock in trade.
Yup! Told you so . . .
Wouldn’t want you to be any other way!
Me? All that Scorpio on the ASC give me penetrating insights and Venus in Sagittarius usually helps with a modicum of diplomacy in expressing it . . . ::grin::
I think, as people have mused about here, that it is true that both Neptune and Moon near the ascendant tend to make people project themselves onto you.
Avery–
Haha, I had a drag queen slap my ass at a gay club once and said “You go girl! You know you can work it!”. And every time I would look his way he would smile at me and blow me kisses. That was the best compliment I ever recieved from a stranger. Because this was coming from someone who probably didn’t even like women, and he just thought I was so fabulous! I hardly get any attention these days, so that was super-special
But I think the Euro queen was wrong, if you exude that you are beautiful, then you ARE beautiful. Who is someone to say you’re not!
Beautiful is in the mind…period! At least that’s how I feel about it.
If there’s anything I would say I represent about myself is that I am kind-hearted. Mushy I know, but it’s me.
I am my brain. My stock in trade is being the Smart Girl.
I’m a funny, generous, do-gooder. I can’t bear the thought of hurting someone’s feelings, to my own personal determent, BUT if you are being mean to someone else I will get ya!
Neith - yes, you did tell me that and I appreciated it very much.
Heh.
Back in college, I picked up the nickname Oracle… it started off as a joke. Then the first Matrix movie came out, and that clinched it. I even had the same haircut she did.
I remember being six years old and praying to God for wisdom. That fact alone indicates something a little unusual about me. But, yeah, what I sweat and strain and work to put out into the world is something along those lines… wisdom, clarity, calm, insight. I try to be a healer, but my line of medicines is pretty specific.
Sometime over the past two years it finally occurred to me that I was tired of always being right and never being able to FIX any of the things I was right about… which means I’m starting to understand what all those hermit Oracles found out thousands of years ago.
Whatever it is I put out, it’s definitely inspiring me to go out among people less and less. Which is oddly okay with me.
Sometimes how I see myself is quite at odds with how others see me. Sometimes I’m confused at how to view myself. I have been shocked at times during my life at how some people have viewed me. Like times when I have been accused of doing something that I honestly didn’t do. I’m different things to different people - sometimes some people only see me in a certain context. I have pluto in the first house and Uranus in the 12th conjuct the ASC and sun & merc in 8th. I like what 18. ewinbee said, “Whatever it is I put out, it’s definitely inspiring me to go out among people less and less. Which is oddly okay with me.” I can relate to that. I am happy and content and relaxed at home. I don’t doubt myself at home. I know exactly who I am…at home. Must be 4th house jupiter.