Ugh, I’ve got that cappy moon saturn square in my chart too. I’m a constant worrier. SSRI’s helped me.

The problem isn’t worrying. Your chart shows you’d rather think whatever thoughts capture your imagination than simply work toward finding a belief/philosophy that serves you!

Mars is currently spending lots of time winding through your 8th & 9th houses…maybe it’ll help push you a bit to consider what is truly worthwhile about life, and then start living that concept with faith. Do it up big, your chart shows you want to do it with flair!

Otherwise, when Pluto hits that Cappy 2nd house Moon of yours, your self-esteem is in severe jeopary. Position yourself now so it won’t be. Because it *shouldn’t* be. And hold on tight no matter what. Exorcise the word “wrong” from your vocabulary! Because if you are living your life from your own point of view, how could it be wrong? And if you’re NOT living your life from your own POV, then whose life are you living? And WHY?

So: figure out where you stand. That will help cut the chatter. Anything else is just small sh*t, and small sh*t isn’t worthy of your attention. Well, not *much* of your attention, anyway. You’re not a VIRGO, for goodness’ sake!!

For folks who don’t suffer from constant worry, I think they underestimate how debilitating this can be. Especially when it culminates in panic attacks, it is exhausting and very hard to take control of and direct into productive channels. I think it’s naive to assume someone can handle this chemical imbalance through positive thinking or busy work. I’ve been through cognitive therapy and other forms for years, and the best help I’ve found is meds. SSRI’s physically short-circuits the anxiety so you can have a normal day and feel at peace. The effects wear off over time, and you have to keep switching to different ones, but really they’ve been a godsend.

Cappy/Saturn types are control freaks. For us, there’s nothing worse than feeling we have no control over our emotions, our minds, our bodies. Until we regain that sense of control, we simply can’t relax and enjoy life.

I would get a constitutional diagnosis from an Ayurvedic practitioner if I were you, or just go ahead and do self-massages with Vata oil (can get from Banyan Botanicals, online). In vedic astrology, your rising sign is Libra, and while that doesn’t totally determine one’s body-mind constitution, it goes a long way to pointing to a Vata-predominant constitution. Vata rules the movement of the mind, among other things, and when an individual is predominantly Vata or just has a Vata imbalance, worry/anxiety/fear is a textbook-typical result. Hope this helps…I know all this from my own personal experience with the same. The oil massages help quite a lot in calming down the mind; even just rubbing the oil on your feet before bed helps and reduces insomnia as well.

I understand the need for meds for some, totally. But when I think people can overcome their fears, it’s not because I don’t understand, because I do. I was in and out of therapy for years and was very messed up for a long time. And I am free.

I have my ups and downs and while I don’t have panic attacks like I used to, I still have anxiety. But I am doing really well. I do yoga, which is fantastic for me as I practice letting go and giving up control. For me it takes practice. I practice being unattached to my own ego for 1 hour a day and you know what? It bleeds out into my everyday life.

Capricorns/Saturn types need to believe in themselves and what they are doing to be truly happy. People see control freaks, but I see careful consideration of response as well as responsibility.

I’m not trying to hurt anyone by saying that I think anxiety/depression is an ego issue, but this philosophy really, really worked for me and allowed me to begin healing myself, so that’s why I encourage people to take a look. It turned my life around, and I can’t believe how fortunate I feel that this is so.

shell - you are so sweet and I just wanted to say so.

Much love and good luck!

Thank you Elsa! The feeling is mutual!

You’re quite welcome…the vata oil smells to me like massage oil with some herbs thrown in, which is what it in fact is. But, to use it, you massage it all over your entire body, then (ideally) wait about half an hour, then shower off. It still helps even if you shower off immediately, though. So it won’t affect how you smell going to bed. For nighttime, I meant to say to rub organic sesame oil on your feet, and then put on socks (it will stain things otherwise). I’m sure you could use the vata oil then too, but I use sesame. It basically affects things the same way. If you’re identifying a lot with what you’ve read about the vata body-mind type, though, then I’d advise following the other suggestions as well for vata lifestyle, diet, etc., and see if you notice a difference. The same website (Banyan) has lots of good articles on all of this, including a self-assessment questionnaire. Hope it helps, and happy exploring!