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She Found (And Lost) True Love At A Young Age: Moon, Venus, Black Moon Lilith in Pisces
Oh, Elsa
I am so at the end of my wits that I am writing someone I do not even know. I have experienced true love at a young age (18 to 22) with someone I hurt enough to drive them to leave me. After the break up, I reflected and grieved and cried and laughed and realized there was no one in the world that could affect me like he did.
Problem was, after 2 years of complete loyalty, not obsession, after 2 years of being happy by myself and self improvement, spiritual awakening, etc… he still did not trust me and himself to get back together.
So I moved on. Moved half a country away. Kept in touch. Then did not. Met someone else that treats me like gold and loves me as much as I loved my soul mate. I am now with a wonderful man that wants to worship me, have babies with me, marry me, spend time with me and simply adore me … but he’s not my ex.
I need to know if my thoughts, that randomly come up about my ex, are still warranted. I know we had a rare bond… but, now, 2 years from now, 5 years from now… say we got back together… would we be able to beat the odds that seem to be stacked against us, self inflicted or not? Or should I let go of all thoughts, and want, and yearning and focus on my current relationship that is solid and loving yet still seems nowhere close to the degrees of passion that I have experienced prior?
Thank you,
Still Wondering
Romania
Dear Wondering,
Some might say you got what you deserved but I feel very sorry for you because it’s obvious you are deeply pained. I also feel sorry for your current man because he is in love with a woman who is in love with another man. But mostly I feel sorry for you because 18, 19, 20, etc. is way too young to expect a person to recognize, appreciate and manage real love and there is no pain in the world like losing your true partner. I am very sorry and I will answer your specific questions the best I can.
On judging the thoughts of your ex that come to you, don’t bother. This is out of your control. You have your Moon, Venus and the Black Moon Lilith conjunct in Pisces and square Uranus and there is no way you’re going to be able to repress that. The yearning (Pisces) is part of your nature as is the random eruptions (Uranus). You’d be better off to accept the fact you’re going to feel and think about this guy for the rest of your life.
On the question of you and your ex beating the odds, I would vote thumbs up on that because I believe true love is unstoppable.
On the idea of letting go the yearning, by all means do so. Just don’t be surprised when it comes back the next day, the next week… etc.
I wish I had a magic solution for you but I am afraid this is your nature. I would not marry and have babies with someone I did not love. No one deserves that. And don’t get to thinking this man who wants to marry you is this only other option out there because this world is vast.
Much love and good luck.
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With the strong Pisces connection, is it possible, “Still Wondering”, that you’re dreaming up the ex?
When you say “I am now with a wonderful man that wants to worship me [snip]… but he’s not my ex.” Well, that says right there that nobody but the ex will suffice. And it left me wondering, is your vision of the ex even who the ex is? And is the yearning part of the allure?
I dunno. I believe in soul mates conceptually, I suppose, but I also think sometimes different people serve that purpose at different times in our lives, you know?
From what you’ve said, the ex has no interest in rekindling, even after a couple of years and you doing your own work to correct the problems. Why would you think that might change in a few years?
But it sounds like you could have a real, live relationship with a man who adores you, or a fantasy relationship with an ex who has decided to move on…if the pining is part of your nature, you need to recognize that, because it won’t go away even if, by some miracle, you got back with the ex. you’d just end up pining for somethign else.
good luck!
….i think true love is unstoppable too. i hope it works out for you with the one you love
don’t give up!