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Raw Male Energy, I’ve Got To Have It: Balancing The Yin and Yang In The Gym
Astrology in Real Life…
The other day I advised a gal with six planets in Scorpio she’d do well to associate herself with someone earthy to balance the profound emphasis on water in chart. I didn’t mention it but most her Scorpio is in the 12th house, a water house, so the situation is beyond extreme. And in spite of my very masculine writing (Mercury) I am overly yin and I simply need male energy to feel good.
And I have been aware of this for years and have various ways of getting what I need. I can ride a motorcycle for example. Or I can move into a male barracks. 
Whatever it takes… I always find a way to get what I need and as of last week circumstances dictated I fall back on a method I discovered some years ago… walking.
But I don’t walk just anywhere. I go upstairs in the gym where all the big dudes hang out. In the free weight area this is. It’s all huge men and iron up there… it’s all MARS and there’s a track that circles this area, but it’s even more perfect than that.
Because if I just walked by all these grunting men I would be too enormously activated. I would be flooded. But the way its set up, only about a 1/3 of the track is adjacent to the pit of men which is how I see them. You know. Like Vegas! The dealers and the pit bosses are contained in this central area where the regular people (the civilians) cannot trespass.
And this is perfect for me. I am yin going ’round and ’round but in a yang way. Because I can walk f - a -s - t.
And the men actually lift in a yin way if you think about it. They slowly curl the weight, right? Isn’t this glorious? I think so.
So anyway, I walk by them 1/3 of the time, absorbing their energy like a girl-sponge. And then recover for 2/3 of the track, before circling back around to get another hit.
And the fact I am a moving target is conscious and deliberate. I just don’t want to be caught right now, see? I don’t want to deal with the men who are talking to me… targeting me but I also don’t want to lose access to this wonder drug, testosterone. See see how tricky I am?
Is there something (or someone) you know you have to expose yourself to, just to feel normal?
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Yup: nature. It’s not enough that I work outside (and I do), but I must go to the beach or the forest. Because being outside is not enough; I need nature without concrete surrounding me. Spoken like the Taurus Sun/ Sag Rising I am. And then I don’t walk at all, I just stand there like a stunned idiot, like a little Bull in her pen absorbing earth beneath my feet.
I also need to expose myself to positive people. I have no problem with the darker personalities, but I need a couple of chirpy people, too as my Sun Square Saturn can lead me to think the world is harsh, harsh, harsh.
Hmm.. Marsilio Ficino wrote something I’ve been thinking about. He wrote that philosophers and scholars have an excess of the black bile humor which is aggravated by an excess of thinking, sedentary work, an enjoyment of isolation, reflection and books. It causes melancholy. The person predisposed to be a professor or research professor seems to act this type of way or be fine with thinking and studying. The college life with its short classes with lots of free time in between also promotes the idea that the rest should be solitary study time in your room. The “long and lonely road” of professorship that everyone’s been scaring me with and the idea of studying alone most of the time.. I have difficulty imagining my life this way. I hope college isn’t supposed to be like this. I can’t “live the contemplative life,” concentrate or be without a social setting or “fun” for that long. So I guess what I need is either to walk for long periods of time in some sort of bustling setting or the society of not intimate friends but a “crowd.”
Dina,
I don’t think college is supposed to be this way…the idea that is propagated seems a bit redundant for, like the idea that one must *suffer* for art and love. Fact is, some wonderful artists are happy and in love to boot. Hell, some raise happy lil offspring, even!
I, too, can’t live the contemplative life without social interaction, but I think this (fun and social interaction) is helpful to remaining contemporary, and thus able to relate to students in a relevant way.
Right on, kasmiri! I totally agree with your take.
Funny you mentioned the suffering bit. One guy I know mentioned how he used to think that happiness was the end of life until he came to Russia. There he learned a great deal and had a really good experience but wasn’t always happy and suffered a lot. His teacher told him, “You are an artist. I hope you suffer a lot in life” or something to that effect. It has to do with the Russian mentality which I understand and has a lot of currency since he’s reading Dostoevsky with me in class. It’s funny, just like I have no clue how one becomes a good professor, I have no clue what it means to be an artist and the whole idea of suffering means nothing to me.
Or rather, kashmiri, you just surprised me because I forgot about artistic suffering. It’s hard to become an original or true artist, eh?
I don’t know…that originality in art is something I think of all the time. Can we communicate in a unique way? I think so. Hopefully this communication trickles down into our art and renders it unique. As for suffering, I am not sure if they mean poverty or not. Does my huge overdraft contribute to my suffering as an artist?
:laughs:
I think that sometimes with art, a person thinks: same, same, eh, eh, same…and then something or someone comes along and knocks your effen socks off.
Dostoevsky is amazing…you finish reading something of his and it’s like: AH! Kind of like realizing you’ve been in a full Nelson for a spell without even being aware of it.
Kashmiri - have you been arrested yet for exposing yourself? LOL
Elsa, I loved this post. I love that raw male energy thing, too. I just find myself attracted to guys. Usually if there is a group of women and a group of guys, I’ll try to find a way to get over to the group of guys. Nothing wrong with women, love women. Maybe it’s the male/female thing, I don’t know…
God Elsa, I’m still trying to be more Marsy, and it STILL ain’t happening. I’m the one that goes to the gym during dead hours just to avoid passing groups of men. I think of myself as generaly confident…but when it comes overly testosterone-filled environments…I assume the fetal position…hehe.
This is a part of me I still am trying to understand and work on. Not so easy.
@ Shell - just wondering if you put that down to anything in particular in your horoscope…