I’ve been scarce because I’ve been under the gun, big time. I plan to finish the stabbing thing and also someone asked about the Pluto transit to my Moon. I’m sorry, I don’t remember who! There have been a lot of comments on older posts recently. I guess people are getting here via search or something, and what happens is the comments, the page where I can see them collated updates and the particular comment drops off and I have no idea where to begin to look. But whoever you are that asked, I do plan to write about that and in fact I got started on it before I got waylaid.

I got waylaid by my Saturn transit. With Mars in Leo hotting that thing up, and Chiron and Jupiter involved…well if you have planets or angles in the mid-degrees of the Fixed signs, then I don’t need to tell you because you know! And it’s times like this…

Well sometimes people ask me, “How the hell can you believe in astrology?” And I just shake my head. When you can set your watch by the planets, how can you not believe in astrology? And I can set my watch…

So right now I have Saturn transiting my 7th house (relationships) applying to Venus (relationships). And I can’t even think of all the ways it’s manifesting.

Er…I have support (Saturn) from others (Venus/ 7th), but what others can do for me is limited (Saturn). It’s restricted (Saturn). Because they are suffering or having various hardship of their own.

There are boundaries everywhere. Some of them I’ve put in place, others have been imposed from the outside. Still others are just quietly and intuitively understood and respected (Saturn in Leo).

I have created (Leo) a document defining (Saturn) what I want in relationship (7th house). I have signed contracts (Saturn) regarding relationship.

Think I was doing this shit a year ago? NOT!

And a few days ago, a friend upset me. I was really upset and I told her about it. I felt I had to. The next day we were talking. She has Capricorn and gets insecure.

“I thought I lost you,” she said.

“What? Whaaat? Fuck no. You can’t lose me. We’re friends. You’d have to screw my husband to lose me,” I said. “And I don’t even have a husband! But seriously. That’s not going to happen. Please understand this, okay? I don’t want you to think things like that about me. Don’t ever worry about something happening like that over something stupid because it will never be. Are you going to screw my husband?”

“No.”

“Well then, we’re going to be friends till we die.”

See that? That’s a commitment. And it’s me defining the relationship. I am telling her exactly where the lines are.

And then there are the relationships from thirty years ago. Old lovers popping up from thirty years ago, to offer support! Which is gratifying beyond belief, by the way. There is nothing like it. There is nothing in the world like investing in relationship and having it come back to you. Karma, right? Saturn is karma.

I am also having a lot of doors close on me. I try to go here, or there or there, but no dice. I have a strong feeling of fate and destiny about this when it happens. I submit.

There is a lot of pain. Reality is painful, especially for Venus Neptune like me. But Saturn does not stamp out Neptune. I still dream. I still believe in love, and know if you ever really love someone, it is forever. Real (Saturn) love (Venus) never ends, just like it never begins. If you have it, then you have it and if you have it, life is blessed and blessed forever.

It’s blessed by everyone you love and everyone who loves you no matter where they are and regardless of what they can or cannot do. And real love, no matter how flawed is still head and shoulders above fake love, or false love. And real love is strong. It’s unbreakable.

Really, I don’t think there is anything stronger than love. Do you agree?