Hello again Double Aquarius, biracial, gay cellist, deep-thinking, hard-working writer with one of the most exquisite charts I have ever seen in my life.

I am going to define your problems for you. Not that you didn’t do a good job, because you did. But you have your words and I have mine.

Pluto square the Sun and Moon gives energy that attracts and repels. When you sense people are attracted to you, it gives a feeling of power. When you sense their repulsion, you feel like an ogre or worse. Much worse actually. It’s very strange energy because it pulls people in as it simultaneously pushes them away and you have to walk around with a force field like that.

Well guess what? There’s nothing you can do about it. It’s how you are built. It’s how I am built too, so don’t forget that. You are not alone out there.

There are others like you… akin to you, and this is one of the ways you can go at that loneliness problem. You can keep an eye out for your tribe, that is. People like you, who are sensitive to what is hidden. People well acquainted with intense feelings, including pain.

Because you may very well be an intense piece of work, but understand this: people feed off energy like yours. They sure as hell do. Right before they persecute you in many cases, and not because you deserve it! But because as Elvis Costello writes in “Blame It On Cain”, “…it’s nobodies fault, but we need somebody to burn..”

Remember they used to burn “witches”? Who do you think those women were? Think they were intense? Threatening? Sexual? I bet they were and what did the collective do? They burned them down.

You could say the same thing about the black men killed by the KKK and the like. Do you think those white boys were threatened? I do.

And what if you were one of them? What if you are part of the group being persecuted?

Well you are, aren’t you? And no wonder you feel “unattractive”. How can you not feel lowly and dirty and so forth, when the collective constantly throws it’s shadow on you?

Well the fact is, I don’t think this is entirely avoidable. You can work with it and I’ll get to that, but I don’t think you can avoid going down from time to time. And I’m not telling you this to make you feel bad. I am trying to illuminate the root of your desperate feelings, the “slow rhythms” you mentioned that you can’t quite pin down.

I want you to see that you are carrying the shadow for the collective and the root goes back for generations. And at this point, I guess I better apologize to your Aquarius side. The part of you that is detached, that is. Because I know this is very heavy for you on some level, but I can’t help it. This is your chart.

Come back tomorrow.

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