Dear Strung,

Well hello, you Double Aquarius, biracial, gay cellist, deep-thinking, hard-working writer with one of the most exquisite charts I have ever seen in my life. How the hell are you? Not so good, I’m sorry to hear. I will try to help.

And I am going to take my time. I am going to write on your chart for a few days, so those reading with short attention spans, please come back later in the week.

First the anger. Anger, sex drive and “getting what you want” in general is a function of Mars in a chart. Your Mars is in Scorpio conjunct Pluto, which is one badass Mars. It’s potent. It’s powerful. It’s a killer Mars, a super focused Mars, but. But it is also conjunct Saturn.

Saturn insists you control this! Saturn is afraid. And this is for good AND ill.

For example, Saturn tied up with Mars gives discipline. You can sit in that chair and play your instrument. You can take direction. You can burrrrrrrrn it to your hard drive.

But on the downside… well there is great fear. What if your power gets loose? What if you lose control?

And in a way, this is what is happening with the angry outbursts. You have been containing this Mars of yours… denying it and it’s not going to take it anymore. Basically you are meeting your own prowess. It wants to be acknowledged and exercised.

And you can think if this in phallic terms if you wish. In fact, I recommend it. Like a hard-on that occurs in nature, your energy wants to be used.

And I am not suggesting that you are not acquainted with this in the least. But over this next year, as Saturn transits your natal Mars, Pluto, Saturn conjunction, you will become very aware of your raw male energy and more masterful at channeling it - which for the record, is OFF THE CHARTS by anyone’s standard.

Now regarding your low mood and problems in relationships, these things are hard-wired, just like your prowess and the struggle it presents. Further, they are connected.

See, the Mars, Pluto, Saturn conjunction in your chart is square both your Sun and Moon in Aquarius, and brother? Let me tell you something. This is just about as hard as it gets. Anybody who thinks they’re having a hard life ought to get in your body for a day. It would shut ‘em right up. So absorb this today and tomorrow, part two.

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